The doctor has looked at my blood test results and says I
now qualify as “Neutropenic sepsis”. I
said to the doctor that i thought i knew what both those words meant and that
they sounded ‘bad’ but could she clarify that neutropenic means a very low
white blood count and thus, immune system and sepsis meant blood
poisoning. She said yes but that it
wasn’t confirmed. The results show a very low white blood count and although
she stressed, THERE IS NO EVIDENCE OF BACTERIA IN THE BLOOD, they will treat me
with a drip of antibacterial stuff as a preventative measure. This prevents sepsis but doesn't actually
make me better. To the question of what I could do to makes myself better, she
said just be yourself eat well and drink lots of water and keep spirits up. I'm
doing all three of those at the moment although to be perfectly honest there is
a certain conflict between keeping my spirits up and ‘neutropenic sepsis’ along
with everything else which begins with ‘immuno’. I’m beginning to think that this is quite a
serious The drip is the same ball and
chain as the chemo but she promised me it would be much quicker.
1,00 am: Moved right across the hospital to Loxley ward
(near maternity!) for an hour’s drip of antibiotics.
2.15: end of antibiotics
5.am:
observations
As I have done throughout, I feel fine - a bit tired of
course but nothing more that from being woken up every 2 minutes – i.e., not
ill-tired or lethargic. Just human.
